this is just one of those nights where i couldn’t sleep if i tried. work tonight was fun. Shardane, Mary, and Stephanie kept me entertained. theres nothing like dressing mannequins and making “Justice: The Musical”. come on, who doesn’t sing while counting the deposit?
tomorrow is registration for the last year of my high school career. damn. after all that is said and done, i leave for my 3 day trip to chicago. ive missed it there =]
in honor of the changes i’m making in my life, i’ve decided to let this out of my system since i don’t have the courage to say it to your face.
i think i knew the whole time we were together that you were using me. i shouldve known when i realized i didn’t have an answer when people asked if we were dating, or the way you sent overly flirty text messages to my best friend, or the way you were only interested in the physical aspect of the relationship we had, or maybe it was the way you played me that damned song as if you hadn’t played it to a million other girls before (and probably during) your time with me. what really gets me though, is that you were the one to end it. you were the one to cut me off. you were the one that stopped calling, texting, everything. but whatever. i won’t lose any sleep over it. after all, i’m a one man show. right?
tonight was good. went out for coffee with some friends and ended up seeing a lot of people that i hadn’t heard from in a while. i feel oddly at peace with myself. i’m glad i got all this off my chest. i’m closing at work tomorrow and then senior registration and off to chicago the next day. =]
sleepovers with sarah usually end up like this.
it’s been an extremely lazy day and i’m glad. i don’t get enough of those anymore. i leave for chicago on wednesday and i couldn’t be more excited. i miss the three weeks that i lived there at loyola. nothing beats a stuffy classroom and cafeteria food for 3 weeks of your summer. best experience of my life. anyway, today was good. all i did was lay in bed and watch the hills. i needed a break. and i decided that i’m making some serious changes in my life, starting today. i’m going to learn to play the hand i was dealt and have fun doing it.
i feel like my life has only just begun.
